Realization

Today I came to a realization about my health. I have come to the point in my life where there is no next step to try. I am at the end. Which has had me thinking a lot about what I do want in life. I would love to have another step to try but I won't be hoping for that anymore. My focus and attention will be going toward other things. All I want now is to be able to well enough to spend as much time with my husband and kids that I can. I just want to be able to relieve the pain and nausea so I can actually have some fun with my family. I'm scared of death like most people, but I understand it more now than I ever have. Life isn't about focusing on a miracle cure. It's about spending time ever in the moment. Enjoy every second of time with everyone. Memories to hold onto when you feel like giving up.